Friday, December 19, 2008
What a week!
I really can't believe that it will be a week ago tomorrow that my life totally changed for the better. It took me hitting rock bottom to figure some things out but I'm ok with that. Last Saturday I had a total and complete mental breakdown. Seriously, the kind you see in the movies. For those of you that know me it's hard to imagine I'm sure. I'm usually a happy person but over the last few months I have not been. My Dr. switched my meds a few months ago and what a mistake that was. I was taking Celexa and she switched me over to Cymbalta. I became a totally different person. Steve said that I was horrible to live with and that my depression was worse than it was when I wasn't taking meds. The crazy thing about this is that I totally thought that things were just fine. I didn't see the changes in me that others did. Last Saturday was my breaking point. It all got started over a dumb passport. I'm not kidding. That's how out of it I was. Loooonnngggg story short...I lost it and told Steve that I had taken a bunch of pills when I really hadn't. I wasn't suicidal by any means but I wanted him to know that I was hurting and that was the only way I could think of. He called 911 and the cops and paramedics came and took me to the hospital. I was at our local ER for 5 hours and then finally was transferred up to UNI. I'll tell you more about that later. This is just the beginning of my story and battle with SEVERE depression and anxiety. I'll post more VERY soon. Hopefully tonight. I can't wait to tell you about my stay at UNI. It's definately something to look forward to. Gotta run and cut Steve's hair now.