Tuesday, September 15, 2009

It's Been a LONG Time

Was it really in February that I last posted? Sorry. I'm just not sure if anyone still reads this blog.

What can I say? What a difference a few months makes! We've moved back to the Salt Lake area and I couldn't be happier. I saw a dear friend of mine from Tooele and she said that I was "glowing". She could tell I was happier. We joked around that one of the only reasons we moved to Tooele anyways was so we could meet. She says that I am her guaridan Angel but she is mine too! I hope she knows that.

I am doing a lot better with the depression. I still have my days (sometimes many days in a row!). It's a battle I will fight forever but that's ok. I have a great support system.

I have been down the last week or so. I realized that it's because I haven't been doing anything to renew my spirit. I just sit around and do nothing or it's the same old boring routine everyday. And I can't do that. I need to get crafting again. I just unpacked my craft room (well I should say it's 90%) unpacked. I have several thing I want to work on and need to start! I also need another good book to read. Anyone have any good suggestions?

I need some balance in my life. I find that I get very down when my house gets dirty. I look around and am overwhelmed with the mess. And then I just get more depressed. I tend to beat myself up a lot!

But this morning I had my husband give me a priesthood blessing. We are LDS and I know that the power of prayer and the priesthood can help. He mentioned that I need to be thankful for the things that I have, even the little things. And then I realized that I had forgotten to be thankful. That's a huge trigger for me. I need to remember to be thankful! And I need to fill my life with good things like good music, TV, books, etc.

Speaking of that. I LIVE for the fall TV lineup! I love to set my DVR and see if fill up! Seriously...it really does make me happy. So I guess we all need to find the things that make us happy even if it doesn't make sense to other people. I have a NEW favorite TV show! Has anyone seen "Glee" yet! Holy moly. That's one thing that brings a smile to my face!

So find things that make you happy! Do them! Find little things to be grateful for. I once got an email from someone VERY dear to my heart and they write down 5 things that they are grateful for each and every night. Sometimes it's easy for them and sometimes it's hard. That's keeping it real! So sometimes we will be grateful for the $20 bill that we found in a jacket pocket and then other times we will be grateful that we were able to just get out of bed. It's ok. Just find the good!


  1. Tami - I got on your other blog to get an update on your health and followed the link here. Can I just say THANK YOU! Depression is a huge thing in my family - unfortunately I get it from both sides. I've been wondering lately if I'm have a downward trend and I have been to "scared" to talk to anyone about it. I appreciate your candor and your willingness to share your struggle. I forget how many people do struggle with this. I can tell you have your bad days and your good, and just knowing that makes me feel like I'm not a "failure" when I have a bad day. This blog is going on my list to watch and I appreciate the support I feel from it. I really like your safety plan. Thank you again for taking the time to share!

  2. Patti - You are awesome! I'm so glad you read my blogs. Please know that if you need anyone to talk to that won't judge you can let me know and I'll be there! I know how hard it is to feel scared to let others know about how you are feeling. Hang in there and know that you are so NOT alone! Love ya!

  3. you are awesome girl! I am so glad that you are doing better in SLC than Tooele. We have started doing a lot better here and I realized that living in Tooele was trapping me. I still struggle with depression, especially right now during my pregnancy but it's important to keep plugging on and enjoying what little happiness we can have during the down times.

  4. TAMI I LOVE YOU! I am so glad you keep up this blog.. I havent checked it for a while.. But I am glad I found it today!